What initially drove my attention to Bible reading was the Bible stories, later by the grace of God, I read and understood the KJV Bible FOUR times from cover to cover. Every day, I tried to hear from the Holyspirit like so many claim. I found out it is a lie when I realized this spirit wasn’t talking to any member of my family or people I know personally, while some people fake it not to be tagged “POSSESSED WITH EVIL SPIRIT”
After reading the bible, I became confused, I won’t clap my hands in church as there is no direct command in the Bible to do so neither did Jesus clap while praying or worshipping God rather he bowed and prayed to God in Matthew 26:38.I will only do so that they won’t think I have evil spirit!!
I started praying for my enemies obeying what Jesus said in Mathew 5:44,”But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you” in contrast to how Nigerian pastors instruct their members to call on God to destroy their enemies by fire which Jesus never taught. Something unexplainable is why we have to go to church on Sunday when we call ourselves Christians (those who want to be Christ-like) yet Jesus never went to any house of worship on Sunday. If going to church means we are keeping the Sabbath, the Sabbath according to the bible falls on Saturday, not Sunday.
After reading the bible four times cover to cover, I was confused yet convinced that I was not wrong in having no more regard for the church, since I found out that it was founded on lies and when you question these lies, they (pastors) play on your brain telling you that you need the holy spirit which makes you begin to wonder if they are better than or more righteous than you. An example of these lies is “JESUS CHRIST IS YOUR LORD AND PERSONAL SAVIOUR”. When I haven’t completely lost faith in Christianity, I still regard Jesus to be my lord and saviour but my curiosity makes me ask, “Noah was the only righteous person when God wanted to destroy the world by flood hence he was saved with his family; Now if Noah was not righteous when God wanted to destroy the world and he was destroyed with the people, who would Jesus come to die for? Why then is Noah not regarded as our saviour?”. The only answer I can get is “YOU NEED THE HOLY SPIRIT”(The Christians’ way of avoiding questions)
The concept of trinity is something that does not make sense to me at any point in time, my reading of the entire bible made me conclude it is preposterous, absurd, irrational, illogical, and uncommonsensical. When you say “The father is God, the son is God and the holy spirit is God but these three are one yet Christians are monotheists not polytheists though the father is not the son nor holy spirit, neither is the son the father nor the holy spirit and the holy spirit isn’t the son nor the father” is somehow similar to saying,” There are known knowns. These are things we know that we know. There are known unknowns. That is to say, there are things we know that we don’t know. But there are also unknown knowns. There are things we don’t know we don’t know” (Donald Rumsfeld), the latter making more sense than the former.
I was in this state of skepticism when I stumbled on a post on Facebook where some Muslims were having a dialogue with a Christian. This occurred in June 2013. I started to argue with these Muslims and as they were raising topics like,” Did Jesus establish Christianity when he was on earth? Who revealed the bible? Jesus was a Muslim etc. This was the first encounter I had in inter-religious dialogue. I later went on to study about the historical background of the bible ranging from the authenticity of the books to their reliability. It was then I started seeing many lies the missionaries have fashioned to be true. After I furthered my research, I became exposed to many things, some of these things I will outline in other chapters of this book.